still here

orang lain da best best duk bersenag lenang kat rumah, but i'm still here. batch kitorang kne kawad untuk konvokesyen ni. hai... letih la camni.
btw, kitorang duk kat teltrac, make it worth the while coz it's a good room, with aircond and personal toilet.
sajer jer nk post arini, xde bnde nak wat lagipun. kthanxbai

demon of my own

i close my eyes,
i hope the world don't see me,
i am lost,
trying to find solace,
in the most unlikely place,

for every words that i said,
i was unsure if they were right,
standing between fabricated tales and bitter truth,
don't know which side to choose,
which one will help me to pull this through,

this is not a fairy tale,
i am not a princess,
damsel in distress,
there is no prince to save me,
pick my own sword,
fight my own demon.
because i am on my own,


i was feeling a little emo, (okay, a lot of emo) and this poem just flowed out when i was studying for my final.

what kurosaki and akamaru have to say

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okay, that what akamaru says4l.

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that what kurosaki says
had to post now before they send my laptop to total destruction

why do people lie?

"liar liar, pants on fire"

Everybody lies.  It may only be “white” lies, but everyone tells lies or “omits the truth” sometimes. We start lying at around age 4 to 5 when children gain an awareness of the use and power of language.  This first lying is not malicious, but rather to find out, or test, what can manipulated in a child’s environment.  Eventually children begin to use lying to get out of trouble or get something they want. White lies, those concocted to protect someone’s feelings, are not a big deal at all.  The person, however, who seems to feel compelled to lie about both the small and large stuff has a problem. We often call these folks pathological liars (which is a description, not a diagnosis).  They lie to protect themselves, look good, gain financially or socially and avoid punishment.  Quite often the person who has been deceived knows that this type of liar has to a certain extent deluded him or herself and is therefore to be somewhat pitied.A much more troubling group is those who lie a lot — and knowingly — for personal gain. These people may have a diagnosis called antisocial personality disorder, also known as being a sociopath, and often get into scrapes with the law. Lying often gets worse with the passage of time. When you get away with a lie it often impels you to continue your deceptions. Also, liars often find themselves perpetrating more untruths to cover themselves. We hold different people to different standards when it comes to telling the truth.  We expect, for example, less honesty from politicians than from scientists.  We have a vision of purity about those who are doing research, while we imagine that politicians will at least shade the truth about themselves in order to get elected. 
Why do we dislike liars, especially sociopaths, so much? It’s a matter of trust.  When a person lies, they have broken a bond – an unspoken agreement to treat others as we would like to be treated.  Serious deception often makes it impossible for us to trust another person again. Because the issue of trust is on the line, coming clean about the lie as soon as possible is the best way to mend fences.  If the truth only comes out once it is forced, repair of trust is far less likely. As a parent, the most important message you can send your children about lying is that you always — always — want them to come clean with you.  No matter how big a whopper they have told, remind them that you would always rather hear the truth, no matter how bad it is, than be deceived.  Tell them there is really nothing more sacred in your relationship than your trust of each other. 
Of course, all this presupposes that we have discovered an untruth — some people are so expert at deception that it often takes a long time to find out that we have been lied to.How, then, can we best detect whether we are being misled? There is no foolproof way, but there are often clues you can see in behavior that should make you suspicious:

•  Avoidance of eye contact: Usually someone makes eye contact at least half the time they are talking to you.  If you notice them avoiding eye contact or looking down during a specific part of a conversation, they may well be lying.
• Change of voice: A variation in pitch of voice or rate of speech can be a sign of lying.  So can lots of umms and ahhs.
• Body language. Turning your body away, covering your face or mouth, a lot of fidgeting of hands or legs can indicate deception.
• Contradicting yourself:. Making statements that just don’t hold together should make you suspicious.

If you lie all the time, even about unimportant things, you are likely to have a problem that will eventually -- if it hasn’t already -- cause you real relationship, financial or legal troubles. Figuring out what is driving you to lie in the first place will help heal this self-destructive behavior. This may mean going into treatment with a therapist to discover why you feel the need to deceive.

taken from: http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/4072816/ns/today-today_health/

for more info: www.drgailsaltz.com. 

baby sitting akamaru adn kurosaki

okay, aku raser tu la namer dorang. tak  tau la kalo salah...
so, arini first day jage due ekor nie. huih curius giler dorang ni, abih bilik dier explore.

nom nom time!

yg kaler hitam tu kurosaki 

yg merah 2 akamaru (sori pekan kalo fakta salah)

kurochan asyik nk explore jer. abih serata ceruk die check. dah la xtive nk mampus, x terkejar aku.

akachan pulak die respon kalo time bagi makan jer. die ni aku perasan suke arang gosok telinga dier, samapi lentok dowh.
due-due ni diam jer, kecuali kalo time kene pegang, marah sangat kalo kne pegang.

sampai masuk dalam bekas makan

akachan ni aku tngk mmg suker makan. mese aku bg makn, die first sampai n last abih. dah abih dlm bekas die, g usha bekas kurochan lak. dah tu, gi main kejap2 chek bekas mkn balik. huhu dah 'bulak gete' bak kate asma tp masih berusaha untuk membulatkan lg diri. hehehe 

aku harp berjaya la misi aku. (ade misi ni, korang ingt pekan bagi dorang sje2 jer ker, wat hadiah bday, heh ade misi tau) 

(sori gambar kurochan xde, ssh betul nak kasi dier duk diam)

99 things worth knowing about me (for my 99 th post)

1.  i am a girl (technically and totally a girl)
2.  i am the first of four sibling
3.  i love vanilla
4. i love cats
5.  i hate anchovies
6.  i only prefer my mak's nasi lemak
7. i an afraid of scorpions (childhood trauma)
8.  a speak two languages 
9.  admire blair waldort character in gossip girl
10. give me a 5 inches thick book (good, fascinating book) and i can finished it in a day
11. i LOVE harry potter
12. i think punkster are cool
13. i like the colour black, white and red (emo colour)
14. my childhood name was wawa (dont call me that)
15. i like to collect quotes
16. my favourite authors are rudyard kipling, j.k rowling and lewis caroll
17. i love seafood
18. my sister hate me
19. i hate my sister
20. i have and had lots of kinds of pets
21. i want to open a petting zoo
22. i secretly wanted to be a dj
23. my dad let me do anything i want cause i'm sensible
24. i love to watch tim burton's, and david yates film
25. i named my pet cat 'KILLER"
26.  i like man who let their woman to be independent
27. i love writing 
28. i am clumsy
29. i have a quite serious chocolate binge during 'that time of the month'
30. i sleep like 10 hours a day, lesser and i'll get cranky
31. i hate mushroom soup
32. i write on my wall, literally
33.  i sined all the petition i found if it is about saving the endangered species
34. my favourite wild animal is wolf
35. i think werewolf are cooler than vampire
36. i hate twilight
37. i don't really like  milo
38. i have bad handwriting
39. i cant draw
40. i am bad at determining distance
41. i am direction blind, i get lost easily
42. i love to be in the dark especially when my mood is not so okay
43. i love the flower queen orchids
44. i tease my brother a lot
45. i always have veggie in my meal, it's a must
46. i never had accident (motorcycle/car) 
47. i love playing in the water
48. i like to talk about me than other people (i dont do gossip)
49. i am a firm believer in karma, what goes around come around
50. i love the lavender scent
51. i like to plan before i do something
52. i dont really like sweet things
53. i cant eat anything spicy
54. i join fanfiction community
55. i cant play games (computer games)
56. i depend on my adrenaline during p.e class so i can run faster
57. i hate jogging
58. i hate wet toilets
59. i am not a crybaby, if i cried, thats mean i was hurt so bad
60. i love teddy bears
61. never talk about politics in front of me coz i dont get them
62. i secretly have a crush on someone
63. i like to be on time
64. i hate those that make me wait
65. i hate silly conversation
66. i prefer smaller groups of dependable friends that lots of two-faced, back-stabbing slut
67. i used to think that i must be the first because my mom named me 'the first' but now i am not so competitive
68. i sleep with my blanket no matter how hot it is
69. i am my own person
70. i love to listen to song with good lyrics
71. i think r&b and rap songs are rubbish 
72. i never been out  of malaysia
73. i am uncomfortable to be in a place with too many people
74. i have all of harry potter books and now i'm collecting the dvd
75. i hate malay drama and lots of their film
76. i am a realist
77. one day i want to have a pet tiger 
78. i prefer to watch national geographic in astro
79. i still watch cartoon
80. i hate to argue
81. i will say whatever i like to whatever i see
82. i can be in the internet for hours doing nothing
83. i think i deserve everything i dad
84. i lost my room to my sister
85. i dont mind being alone
86. i dont really like junk food
87. i hate writer block
88. i think safari is fascinating
89. i hate crocodiles
90. when i was younger i wanted to study animals
91. i am a gemini
92. my favourite game show is 'wipeout'
93. i think britney spears will die young
94. l cant drink milk, it make me sleepy
95. if i drink nescafe, i cant sleep for more than 12 hours
96. i really hate routines
97. i hate folding my clothes
98. i like number 6 and 8
99. i think nobody will read this

bloaty and gassy?

perut masuk angin memang wat kite bengang, ye la, bhgian lain ok tetibe ade baby fat kat tummy, lagi sengal, baby fat tu bukan lemak pun, tp angin. (hangin betul la)
saya ader masalah ni dah lmer da. mmg tension. so mase belek-belek cleo baru ni, ade jumpe artikel untuk menghalang perut  masuk angin. tipsnya adalah:

1. kurangkan pengambilan aimuman berkarbonat, gula-gula getah dan juga menggunakan straw. (hmm.. interesting) menurut willian d. chey, seorg dr. kt university of michigan health system, bahan-bahan ini membawa masuk udara ke dalam sistem usus and membuatkan perut kembung.

seem cool but no so cool

2. berhati-hati dengan pengambilan fiber. fiber mmg bagus namun ia boleh terkumpul dalam usus, terperam dan menghasilakan gas. sebaiknya, ambil makanan berfiber secara sedikit-sedikit sehingga anda menemui jumlah yang sesuai untuk diet anda.

3. yoghurt to the rescue. amalkan pengambilan yogurt kerana ia membantu pembentukan bacteria baik dalam perut anda dan mengurangkan bakteria x berapa baik dari menyebabkan gangguan sistem penghadaman.

yummy youghurt

4. no more HFCS (high-fructose corn syrup). badan kita hanya mampu menyerap sebahagian kecil HFCS, dan sepertimana fiber, ia boleh terperam dlm perut dan menghasilkan sesuatu yang x best (kesannya sama seperti fibre)