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Friday, May 27, 2011

still here

orang lain da best best duk bersenag lenang kat rumah, but i'm still here. batch kitorang kne kawad untuk konvokesyen ni. hai... letih la camni.
btw, kitorang duk kat teltrac, make it worth the while coz it's a good room, with aircond and personal toilet.
sajer jer nk post arini, xde bnde nak wat lagipun. kthanxbai

Thursday, May 19, 2011

demon of my own

i close my eyes,
i hope the world don't see me,
i am lost,
trying to find solace,
in the most unlikely place,

for every words that i said,
i was unsure if they were right,
standing between fabricated tales and bitter truth,
don't know which side to choose,
which one will help me to pull this through,

this is not a fairy tale,
i am not a princess,
damsel in distress,
there is no prince to save me,
pick my own sword,
fight my own demon.
because i am on my own,

i was feeling a little emo, (okay, a lot of emo) and this poem just flowed out when i was studying for my final.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

what kurosaki and akamaru have to say



9uyh                                     n,'45

okay, that what akamaru says4l.

ddddddddddd     8 98
that what kurosaki says
had to post now before they send my laptop to total destruction

why do people lie?

"liar liar, pants on fire"
Everybody lies.  It may only be “white” lies, but everyone tells lies or “omits the truth” sometimes. We start lying at around age 4 to 5 when children gain an awareness of the use and power of language.  This first lying is not malicious, but rather to find out, or test, what can manipulated in a child’s environment.  Eventually children begin to use lying to get out of trouble or get something they want. White lies, those concocted to protect someone’s feelings, are not a big deal at all.  The person, however, who seems to feel compelled to lie about both the small and large stuff has a problem. We often call these folks pathological liars (which is a description, not a diagnosis).  They lie to protect themselves, look good, gain financially or socially and avoid punishment.  Quite often the person who has been deceived knows that this type of liar has to a certain extent deluded him or herself and is therefore to be somewhat pitied.A much more troubling group is those who lie a lot — and knowingly — for personal gain. These people may have a diagnosis called antisocial personality disorder, also known as being a sociopath, and often get into scrapes with the law. Lying often gets worse with the passage of time. When you get away with a lie it often impels you to continue your deceptions. Also, liars often find themselves perpetrating more untruths to cover themselves. We hold different people to different standards when it comes to telling the truth.  We expect, for example, less honesty from politicians than from scientists.  We have a vision of purity about those who are doing research, while we imagine that politicians will at least shade the truth about themselves in order to get elected. 
Why do we dislike liars, especially sociopaths, so much? It’s a matter of trust.  When a person lies, they have broken a bond – an unspoken agreement to treat others as we would like to be treated.  Serious deception often makes it impossible for us to trust another person again. Because the issue of trust is on the line, coming clean about the lie as soon as possible is the best way to mend fences.  If the truth only comes out once it is forced, repair of trust is far less likely. As a parent, the most important message you can send your children about lying is that you always — always — want them to come clean with you.  No matter how big a whopper they have told, remind them that you would always rather hear the truth, no matter how bad it is, than be deceived.  Tell them there is really nothing more sacred in your relationship than your trust of each other. 
Of course, all this presupposes that we have discovered an untruth — some people are so expert at deception that it often takes a long time to find out that we have been lied to.How, then, can we best detect whether we are being misled? There is no foolproof way, but there are often clues you can see in behavior that should make you suspicious:

  •  Avoidance of eye contact: Usually someone makes eye contact at least half the time they are talking to you.  If you notice them avoiding eye contact or looking down during a specific part of a conversation, they may well be lying.
  • Change of voice: A variation in pitch of voice or rate of speech can be a sign of lying.  So can lots of umms and ahhs.
  • Body language. Turning your body away, covering your face or mouth, a lot of fidgeting of hands or legs can indicate deception.
  • Contradicting yourself:. Making statements that just don’t hold together should make you suspicious.
If you lie all the time, even about unimportant things, you are likely to have a problem that will eventually -- if it hasn’t already -- cause you real relationship, financial or legal troubles. Figuring out what is driving you to lie in the first place will help heal this self-destructive behavior. This may mean going into treatment with a therapist to discover why you feel the need to deceive.

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Wednesday, May 4, 2011

baby sitting akamaru adn kurosaki

okay, aku raser tu la namer dorang. tak  tau la kalo salah...
so, arini first day jage due ekor nie. huih curius giler dorang ni, abih bilik dier explore.

nom nom time!
yg kaler hitam tu kurosaki 
yg merah 2 akamaru (sori pekan kalo fakta salah)
kurochan asyik nk explore jer. abih serata ceruk die check. dah la xtive nk mampus, x terkejar aku.
akachan pulak die respon kalo time bagi makan jer. die ni aku perasan suke arang gosok telinga dier, samapi lentok dowh.
due-due ni diam jer, kecuali kalo time kene pegang, marah sangat kalo kne pegang.
sampai masuk dalam bekas makan
akachan ni aku tngk mmg suker makan. mese aku bg makn, die first sampai n last abih. dah abih dlm bekas die, g usha bekas kurochan lak. dah tu, gi main kejap2 chek bekas mkn balik. huhu dah 'bulak gete' bak kate asma tp masih berusaha untuk membulatkan lg diri. hehehe 
aku harp berjaya la misi aku. (ade misi ni, korang ingt pekan bagi dorang sje2 jer ker, wat hadiah bday, heh ade misi tau) 
(sori gambar kurochan xde, ssh betul nak kasi dier duk diam)