a walk to remember

the latest novel i read and i cried.
i rarely read love stories but this one really moved my emotion. it sort of like wrenched my heart. the ending both happy and sad is really what i really looked up in a novel

i couldn't say much, all i could say, the is the best love story i have ever read, yat.

ragam manusia

banyak udang, banyak garam,
banyak orang, banyak ragam.

pepatah melayu yg 1 ni mmg praktikal kan? bnyak tol ragam manusia skarang ni sampai aku pun jadi keliru. ni bukan takat perangai baik jahat jer ni, mcm2 kerenah. kalo setiap perangai tu dijadikan kisah drama melayu, mmg x abih. 

ragam-ragam manusia ni kalo x melibatkan orang lain, xpelah, tp kalo orang kiri kanan depan blakang terlibat, pe cer? perlu ke nak mencanang kelebihan diri, budi kite pada orang, peri pentingnya diri kite ni. perlu ke nak membuat musuh, mencari salah orang, mengaib dan mengata? perlu ke kita menabur budi atas niat  supaya sang penerima membalasnya. manakah LILLAHITAALA?


aku pun dalam dilema ragam manusia. perangai2 yang mengejutkan aku, menyedarkan aku dari dunia aku. dunia yang  hitam putih. aku lupa bahawa terdapat kelabu di setiap sudut. dan sekarang aku nampak.
pape pun, aku akan ttp jadi aku. aku bukan kaki bermuka-muka or talam dua muka or anything. 


i am me, i stay on the sideline and i watched and i try to understand as i am trying to understand me right now.

backstabber

smile on the front, smirk on behind,

you said untruthful words,

laced with lies and deception,

making people believe you, adore you,

yet, 

you are willing to harm them, let them down,

so that you can get your way,

you're pathetic, 

wake friends against one another,

now when i look back, i had always been careful when choosing my friends. i have not many friends but they are enough because i can trust them and they are supportive. yet, in my life i met a lot of people, with a lot of attitude. i keep my head down, away from any confrontations. keep myself away from any problems. i tried my best to be free of life drama. i describe my self as a pacifist. i don't want any life drama.

but there are somethings that are my limits. those things that i hate it when people do it to me. and to me, it was a fair warn for them to know that i am not afraid to do exactly what they did. i believe what goes around will come around, what you did to other, will come back to you.