mode: happy

yes, yes yes!!!!
hahahaha....
suke tol la, elaun da msuk, kerje da nk siap n most importantly, esok nk blk da. walopun x blk rmah tp best gak coz dpt kuar dr maktab (huhuhuhu).
nnt nk shopping bju ryer n most importantly nk hangout, kasi lega skit pale otk ni. cam da nk pech kot pale nie (i think i got aneurysm :p).
to all the poeple out there, dont worry about me... i dont discrimainate, i hate all of u equally... hehehehe

forget

forget him,
forget him,
forget him,
if you cant get over him,
think about all the bad things he done,
he did not deserve you,
he just gonna hurt you more,
he's gonna hold you back,
lie to you and back stab you,
believe me,
he did not love you the way you love him,
this is the end,
stop thinking about him,
close your eyes
and try to get some sleep tonite,
maybe when the new day arrive,
you'll be awaken...

When You Don't Like Yourself | Psychology Today

When You Don't Like Yourself | Psychology Today

What is a Psychopath?

What is a Psychopath?

live love lust lie
i live,
that's the solid fact,
the reason i'm living?
still blurry,
living in the deepest pain of my past,
living in the colourless world of my present,
living to the unknown of my future,
but still,
i'm living...
love,
i felt love once,
sweet and warm,
like cup of hot tea,
but what happen when the tea turn cold,
just like my love,
tasteless,
lust,
is something i cant explain,
how my mind says no,
my heart still want you,
my mind won the battle
but my heart just not giving in,
not yet
lies,
that's all it need,
to break it all apart,
all the lies you told,
all the lies i saw,
are not bearable anymore,
but still,
the razor sharp blade isn't the answer,
coz i'm too afraid to lose the other three...

the winning

DEATH OF AN INNOCENT
By: Unknown
I went to a party, Mom, I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom, so I drank soda instead.
I really felt proud inside, Mom, the way you said I would.
I didn't drink and drive, Mom, even though the others said I should.
I know I did the right thing, Mom, I know you are always right.
Now the party is finally ending, Mom, as everyone is driving out of sight.

As I got into my car, Mom,
I knew I'd get home in one piece.
Because of the way you raised me, so responsible and sweet.
I started to drive away, Mom, but as I pulled out into the road,
the other car didn't see me, Mom, and hit me like a load.

As I lay there on the pavement, Mom, I hear the policeman say,
the other guy is drunk, Mom, and now I'm the one who will pay.
I'm lying here dying, Mom. I wish you'd get here soon.
How could this happen to me, Mom? My life just burst like a balloon.

There is blood all around me,
Mom, and most of it is mine.
I hear the medic say, Mom, I'll die in a short time.
I just wanted to tell you, Mom, I swear I didn't drink.
It was the others, Mom. The others didn't think.
He was probably at the same party as I.
The only difference is, he drank and I will die.

Why do people drink, Mom?
It can ruin your whole life.
I'm feeling sharp pains now. Pains just like a knife.
The guy who hit me is walking, Mom, and I don't think it's fair.
I'm lying here dying and all he can do is stare.

Tell my brother not to cry, Mom.
Tell Daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven, Mom, put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have told him, Mom, not to drink and drive.
If only they had told him, Mom, I would still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom.
I'm becoming very scared.
Please don't cry for me, Mom.
When I needed you, you were always there.
I have one last question, Mom, before I say good bye.
I didn't drink and drive, so why am I the one to die?

the winning poem for my class

another week till due date

huhuhuhu,
hello and welcome to myu world. da lme x menulis kt cni bkn aper,
a) bnyk sngt assignment
b) x tau nk tlis pe
c) connection internet cam hape tah!
btw, skang nie da musin assignment. lecture2 sume, tanpa belas kasihan sedang menimbunkan assignment kpd kami, one after another and it all demanded to be sent soon. huh, is if we dont have our own life.
assignment kali nie da la ssh, pastu ade yg lngsung xder kaitan. huh! cam nk mengamuk aku bce soklan dier.
even subjk mjor pun x sesush dier....
lmer da x menulis sajak....
xder idea, not even melancholic. for these few weeks ahead, i'll be like programmed robot. no time for feeling, let alone to express it. xoxo

feeling fine....

gotong royong

hari ini kami ber NIG. sangt lth tp seronok(coz pak cik blanje mkn). pg 2 kami membersihkan kubur. besar gak kubur 2. ptg 2 plak kami membersihkan balairayer.
huhuhu... semoga semua berseronok dgn apa yg tlh kite lakukan aight...

whats for dinner tonight?

i sat on the chair,
blank staring at my platter,
threw my sight upfront,
no ones there,
blew a sight,
try to focus on my dinner,

the dead things on my plates,
the prove of food chain,
they are cold,
as cold as my hands,
took a spoonful,
it felt so hard to swallow,

dining alone,
is the worst of experience,
what the point of having someone,
when at the end of the day,
you are there eating your dinner alone

hari ni sye xde semangat...
mungkin sbb beban assignment telah mule dirasai. atau mungkin sebb masalah sosial... ntah la, maleh doh nok pikir. bek koi print bhn2 assignment nih ha.. t dok la susoh2 doh. pelik la bahase aku ni....=_='''
(p/s walopun sy org pahang ,sy xleh ckp phg sangat sbb mak sy org tganu and die ckp standard)